| | ni ai wo hai shi ta? ni ai ta? bu wo?
so.
i thought i was okay. but i wasnt.
i wasnt..
OLD ORCHARD.
where many of our memories lay.
thats the first place where i got to know him better. the place where i was alone with him. the place where we goofed off and joked around. the place where we had a longggggg conversation. the place where i realized...
that im starting to like him more.
700 pm. i bought xmas gifts for my friends. i looked at my watched and realized that i have to go home. i was walking to the bus stop when.....
"jun?"
"carm? whatcha doin here?"
i saw him...
when i close my eyes right now and reminisce that day, i can clearly remember the sight of him, smiling next to me. i can remember how surprised we were, looking like fools laughing at the sight of each other. it was obvious that we enjoyed each other's company, telling stories about ourselves, mentioning school and homework, wishing and hoping about the future........
secret glances.
smiling at each other.
goofing around like little kids.
him askin me to hold him while we were crossing the road.
me wrapping my arm around his.
him insisting to open the door for me.
me forcing myself to walk slower.. because he was with me.
him putting the gift he bought a little above my head to block me from the rain.
me smiling secretly and letting him "protect" me.
him accompanying me to the bus stop to wait for the bus.
me putting my scarf around his neck when he said "im cold"...
him smiling at me.
me smiling back.....
those sweet memories....
i went at old orchard tonight.
tears dropped immediately.
my heart was breaking.
these memories..... i know these memories he already forgot.
probably it wasnt even that important to him.
hes too busy with someone else right now anyways.
how can he remember such a thing like this?!
these foolish thoughts that to me are real.
i wish these memories never existed.
"ni ai wo hai shi ta? wo zhi dao ni ai ta."
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| | Posted 3/18/2007 4:07 AM - 22 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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