pinkalicious02's Xanga

survey. haha.

Thu, 03 May 2007 03:06:26 GMT

instead of reading a book.. im doing this.
oh shut up u guys. hahah~

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor:
Ice Cream: COOKIES AND CREAM. yum~
Sorbet: Strawberry
Gelato: i have no idea haha.
Bar: the strawberry one in our ice cream vending machine at school

Favorite Bubble Tea Flavor:
taro for joyyees. omgoshh

Favorite Snack:
Healthy: none? haha
Unhealthy: bunch of chips.. hehe

Coke or Pepsi?
DUH! COKE OF COURSE. i like the taste better.

Cat or Dog?
i like cats better.. they look cuter to me haha

Favorite Superhero:
SPIDERMAN! omfg!!! hes cool.... like climbing walls and stuff like that.. i want to do those too~ and he has a new black suit. uh-huh. hotness.

Favorite Childhood Movies:
i dont remember, honestly. its probably some cartoon movie haha

Favorite Disney Princess:
mulan cuz shes chinese.. haha

Favorite Movies:
MY SASSY GIRL (kmovie), SO CLOSE (hkmovie), TURN LEFT TURN RIGHT (twmovie), TADA KIMI WO AISHITERU (jmovie), GOT 2 BELIEVE (pmovie), SUICIDE CLUB (jmovie scary..)

Favorite Slow Song:
Kahit Kailan. still brings me to tears.

Favorite Quote/Song Lyric:
"never ever ever give up.. ever!~"

Dream Car:
nah i dont really have one. as long as its not old LOL

Guilty Pleasure:
FOOD. FOOD. FOOD. FOOD. and more FOOD.

Pet Peeve:
people swearing 24/7 (annoying), people making out in public.... dirt everywhere.

If you could travel anywhere, where would you go?
CHINA! CHINA! CHINA! oh yes.

What did you want to be when you were a kid?
a teacher.. because i really liked my teacher that time. haha i guess i really looked up to her..

What are three things you can't live without?
GOD. people in my life right now. laptop~

What would you say is your best physical trait?
hands? no?

What's the first thing you see in the opposite sex?
chinky eyes hahahah

What is your idea of a romantic day?
just hanging out with that person only for a whole day is romantic alone (:
but specifically... having breakfast together, playing some sport, then eat lunch together... then go to the lake in the afternoon, ride a cruise and have dinner there... then watching and counting stars.... (:

What is one thing you want to accomplish before you die?
tell people that i love them (:

What's your most embarrassing moment?
i have lots!~
calling out the name of my crush in the middle of his football game.... wahhahaha.
that was crazy.

i was just wondering....

Tue, 01 May 2007 05:32:17 GMT

to love and be loved back...
what does it feel like?

^^~

1238 pm

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 04:42:56 GMT

so many things happened last week.

it was confusion week cuz...

i thought that old feelings might be coming back again. and its making me scared.
but u kno what?
thanks to vanilla face.. haha. hes always there givin me advice and stuff. haha. thanks bro ure the man ^^

and whenever i feel sad, he'll just say something that'll make me laugh. oh man. i wish hes not a senior :(
but oh wells.

he said "just be friends and if u're meant together, then somethin will happen"
so thats what ima do.

so yeah.
and oh, i dont like anyone so. hehehe.

its fun being cool and just chillin. haha.

PRAY FOR CAMP (:

1231 am

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 04:56:18 GMT

"i have loved her all my life.
and she doesnt even know it."

as i wake up and open my eyes, i remember her face immediately. Her face is stuck in my mind that she never left. Whenever i close my eyes, i see her, smiling at me. When i open my eyes, she's still the one i see even though she's not even there.

as i get out of bed, i think about her. i ask myself what shes doing right at that moment. i wonder, "is she awake already?" or "whats her breakfast for today?" or "should i ask her to hang out with me?". these countless questions ring in my head, but i did not seem to mind.

as i start to eat my breakfast, i reminisce about the memories we had together. she eats a lot, sometimes even more than me. she always tell me the restaurants that she goes to and the new foods she tasted. whenever she talks about food she gets happier and happier. she loves food a lot, even more than me, so i get jealous sometimes.

she's my everything.
shes the one ive been looking for all my life.
shes more than a girl to me.
shes my love (:

as i finish my breakfast, i ask myself, "should i go call her and ask her to be with me today?..... i should."

i am so tired of feeling this way.
looking at her was painful because i can see that shes clueless about my feelings.
she doesnt know that shes my everything.
she doesnt know that shes the one ive been looking for all my life.
she doesnt know that shes more than a girl to me.
she doesnt know that i love her.

so i got up, got my phone and started dialing her number.
i have to spend the day with her.
i have to tell her the things she doesnt know.

a very sleepy voice answered,
"hello?"
"hi its me."
"hey!"
"um, are u busy today?"
"i dont think so.. why?"
"wanna go to the lake with me?"
"sure! i havent been to the lake in a while."
"ok. ill pick u up at 3:30 pm then"
*hangs up

4:00 pm. we were already the lake. i bought a kite for both of us and started flying it.
seeing her smile and laugh makes my heart melt. i always want to see her happy.
knowing that shes smiling because of me makes my heart melt.
but i have to make sure im the real reason behind her happiness.

we were sitting beside each other, our feet touching the waves. the wind was blowing in our faces as we watch the sun set slowly before our eyes. my mind was going crazy. how can i let her know?
.....

one.
two.
three.

i reached out for her pinky. i was so nervous that while doing so, my face was buried at the ground. i can feel that she was staring at me for a couple of minutes, wondering what im doing. i started to feel uncomfortable because of her stare, so i started to let go.

i became sad, thinking that i have no hope at all.....
thats what i thought.

as i start to let go, i felt that she took her eyes away from me and started to look afar.
then she hold my pinky tighter, not wanting to let go.
now it was my turn to stare at her......

thats when i realized that she knew from the start.
that shes my everything.
that shes everything im looking for.

that i love her....

and luckily, she feels the same way for me. :]

ok so i want to do one-shots from now on! haha. i hope u enjoy my 2nd short! (: and please dont steal! ask me if u want to use it.

339 am

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 08:07:07 GMT

ni ai wo hai shi ta? ni ai ta? bu wo?

so.
i thought i was okay. but i wasnt.
i wasnt..

OLD ORCHARD.
where many of our memories lay.
thats the first place where i got to know him better. the place where i was alone with him. the place where we goofed off and joked around. the place where we had a longggggg conversation. the place where i realized...
that im starting to like him more.

700 pm. i bought xmas gifts for my friends. i looked at my watched and realized that i have to go home. i was walking to the bus stop when.....

"jun?"
"carm? whatcha doin here?"

i saw him...

when i close my eyes right now and reminisce that day, i can clearly remember the sight of him, smiling next to me. i can remember how surprised we were, looking like fools laughing at the sight of each other. it was obvious that we enjoyed each other's company, telling stories about ourselves, mentioning school and homework, wishing and hoping about the future........

secret glances.
smiling at each other.
goofing around like little kids.
him askin me to hold him while we were crossing the road.
me wrapping my arm around his.
him insisting to open the door for me.
me forcing myself to walk slower.. because he was with me.
him putting the gift he bought a little above my head to block me from the rain.
me smiling secretly and letting him "protect" me.
him accompanying me to the bus stop to wait for the bus.
me putting my scarf around his neck when he said "im cold"...
him smiling at me.
me smiling back.....

those sweet memories....

i went at old orchard tonight.
tears dropped immediately.
my heart was breaking.

these memories..... i know these memories he already forgot.
probably it wasnt even that important to him.
hes too busy with someone else right now anyways.
how can he remember such a thing like this?!

these foolish thoughts that to me are real.

i wish these memories never existed.

"ni ai wo hai shi ta? wo zhi dao ni ai ta."
:/

243 am

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 07:01:45 GMT

boy: see, i know how to cheer you up....

"can u heal my heart as well?"

:/

ni hao ah~
ah yes yes. 243 am. i kno right.
well, once i arrived from school, i ate cereal, watched VH1 for a lil bit, then fell asleep.
ive been asleep for 3 1/2 hours. haha.
so yep. not sleepy at all ^_______^

it has been an awesome week~

[1] got a job! finally. oh wow. im finally growing up, ne? my gosh! im not scared of growing up at all.. its just that.. TIME GOES BY FASTT. haha

[2] got recommended by my english teacher to be a lit center tutor next year! (lit center = place where u can ask help with ur hw) so im definitely doing itt!

[3] Danny GeGe promised that hes gonna buy me a "bai ren kan bu dong" shirt for my bday. HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!?! ah man it makes me happy~ i want that shirt so badd haha.

randomness:
[4] Jun GeGe and I were laughing our heads off because of the "neigaplz" shirt. haha dont even ask what it means... ^^

so yeah man.
im worried about tomorrow tho. i have to take 2 tests and one geom quiz (which i need to get a perfect score at. psh~)

ima go to sleeeepppp even tho im not really that sleepy TT...

as i walk away from you step by step..
each step hurts more than the previos one.
each step makes me think about you more than before.
each step makes the tears flow better.
each step makes me want you more...

but as i move farther away....
i realize that no matter how hard it is to let you go,
i know it'll be better this way.

so as i walk away from your presence,
i turn back and whisper, "i love you"
then i start to cry and say, "i'll be okay....."

its 144 am.

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 05:52:25 GMT
ok dont kill me.
im just not really sleepy. i fell asleep while watching t.v.
so i slept for 2 hours until jayson (accountability partner) called me.

ah so many things happened these past few weeks.
they were so hard for me, but I THANK GOD FOR STILL GIVING ME STRENGTH TO STILL BE HAPPY.
i also thank the people! omg! lets see...

DANNY dang vanilla face :P i meant master haha. i couldnt thank this guy enough. even though he thinks he did not do anything, oh man oh man. HE DID SO MANY THINGS FOR ME ALREADY. xiexie (:

JAERIM oppa! (: ah this guy acts like he doesnt care but actually he does. so thanks chingoo. ah all i have to do is listen to u man. it turns out good! (:

JONEMIE oh locker partner. what am i goin to do without u? shes the only one who understand my feelings and ddnt say anything, but she just listened to me and lend her shoulders. I LOVE HER.

so thats my top three ppl who helped me these past weeks.
i love em. <3

ok man i gotta go to sleep ne?

I REALLY WANNA LEARN CHINESE. LIKE RIGHT NOW!! HAHA.
i want the "bai ren kan bu dong" shirt so bad. gyah~
YEAH CHINESE PRIDE WOO~

"Ask and you will receive..."

p.s. SUPPORT WONGFU PRODUCTIONS. these guys are hilarious. ASIAN PRIDE! :D

Monday, January 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 22:45:45 GMT
woah. havent updated this in such a long time. everyone's in myspace or facebook thats why. me? always chatting in msn or yahoo. dont really like aim ^^;; or my other forums. most of the time im in youtube, watching korean dramas xD

omgosh GOONG S! se7en is a major hottie. so cuteee (:
cant wait til ep. 2..

jjajjangmyun!!!!!! ;D

*ehem* im having boy problems lately.
but see, i dont have time to worry about that now.
so yeah.
man why did i like a senior in the first place..... *sigh*

i mean its finals. geez.
i especially have to worry about my theatre final. thats all im worried about.
the others? i just need to study and stuff.
theater i need to practice practice practice practice.
geez.

IMA JOIN TRACK WUHOOO.
gtg run (: i like running (:

lets see.
GTG WATCH SILENCE. but ehh for some reason i dont have the guts to do it T_T
so eh.
but i will try to finish it after finals. lol 16 more episodes to goooo. ajaa.

ok this entrys kinda crappy.
gotta do my chem cheat sheet.
peace.

ajaaaaaaa

uh-oh xD

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 05:05:52 GMT
so.... i saw a friend yesterday and her name is V A N E S S A xD i missed her omgosh!

here is our convo :]

v: i miss u
c: i miss u too *hug*
v: so wassup with u?
v: omgodd a lot happened! i mean itz been what? 1 and a half year since we last saw each other? ^^
v: i know... so what happened?
c: well... i got my heart broken recently.. but that's ok i like someone now.. xD

then i told her about me and.... um... hahaha.

v: ommo look at u U'RE BLUSHING ^^
c: are u serious??
v: yeahhh.. ^^

so yeah.
are u effing serious?
i was blushing because of him... omigod!!! xD
i cant believe this...

haha that dork making me blush?!?!?! hahahha.
tsk tsk.

uh-oh.... xD

gosh he really makes me smile

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 05:03:18 GMT
so wait... whattt??

yeah psh. i dont like him anymore. xD
but i like someone new... muehehehhe xD

dang i wish chi club is everyday....
so i get to see him everyday...
*sigh*
its like....

i get so excited for thursday to come ><
wah.

friend: "well u kinda have to act fast. i mean he's a senior u know"

oh man. i dunno xD
oh well letz just see what happens....

p.s. photoshop is messed up and wont open

gosh im sooo mad